Pretty Wild

O.K. I really need to say this, “Having a baby is pretty wild!” I’m experiencing things with Kandis that are (dare I say) emotional. Everything right now is heightened and extreme. Kandis doesn’t know it, but I caught her crying while watching a television show. Her eating habits change everyday. One minute she wants shredded wheat cereal, the next day she doesn’t want it. Total Cereal with strawberries on Monday, Raisin Bran on Tuesday, pancakes on Thursday and on Friday she can’t stand any of it.

Now that’s pretty wild.

She sleeps a lot which is good, but she doesn’t drink enough water which is bad. She wants to eat spicy foods which are bad, but she mostly eats healthy which is good. She keeps asking if her breasts are getting bigger…and my answer…ummmm, yes. But she doesn’t like that although naturally they are going to get bigger, right? So I change my answer….ummmm, no.

Now that’s pretty wild.

I get a little preparation on what Kandis might experience in the next couple of weeks from one of the Club’s staff members who is also pregnant. She is 19 weeks and is now going through the “I’m fat” stage. And I have to wonder, how can you consider yourself fat if you are carrying a person inside you? It’s not like you are eating extra food for no reason or that your body is growing for no reason. And I can expect this “fat stage” from Kandis. So what will my answer be when she asks…ummmm… Let me get back to you about that one.

A Happy Valentines Day

This year’s Valentines Day was truly a happy one. With the outpouring of love from friends and family members regarding yesterday’s post, I felt comforted. Not because of the phone calls, not because of the e-mails, but because of the thoughts and prayers of loved ones. Thank you. Thank you for caring so much about me, Kandis, and the baby.

So how is “Mama” doing? Well, just like she wrote in her last post, “Mama is still here” and she’s doing fine. No more “spotting”. And since she never felt any discomfort or cramping, we all feel better. Our next doctor’s visit is on Friday, February 23rd, and we will discuss the incident with Dr. Stokes.

Today was a Happy Valentines Day. I must admit, I was on the verge of calling the doctor myself, but Kandis knows her body. She knew when she was pregnant and she knows if there’s something serious going on with the pregnancy. We both agreed that if any other "spotting" occurs, then we will go to the hospital. Believe me; Kandis is nothing like me when it comes to seeing a doctor. I have to be REALLY sick before I even CONSIDER going to the hospital. But Kandis is different. And with another person inside her, she will not take any chances.

So I hope, despite the “scare”, that everyone had a Happy Valentines Day…we did!

Blood

I have to say that I have a fear of blood; especially the blood from Kandis. I came home tonight and Kandis experienced what she called “a little” blood.
My initial reaction was… well,… fear. Why blood? What does this mean?

I asked Kandis if I should take her to the hospital, and she assured me that everything was alright. But there was blood. How can things be “alright” if there’s blood?

Soon the fear turned to concern; Concern for the baby and concern for Kandis. My only thought was “God would not take…” Dismiss that thought. Everything is alright, right?

So we prayed.

Kandis returned to the bathroom about an hour or so later… No blood.

And that’s good, right?

But what about the blood from earlier?

We are both new to this, so this may be normal. I must admit that I don’t know. What I do know is that I don’t want to see anymore blood. And I don’t want to have any more fears.